Second Workout with Bootcamp

WOW, that's all I can say. Right now I am not in too much pain but I think that will come as the day goes by. You know when you have come down from your workout high and your muscles start screaming at you for making them work out!

Yesterday I was one hurting unit. I went in for my 25 mins of cardio and wow I could really feel Mondays workout. I did 25 mins on the Elliptical at lv.8 ( I didn't know there were lv's on those things!) but I did have to stop a couple times because my muscles were protesting. The thing I am so proud about is that I started back up after taking a break, which was no longer than 60 seconds long. WHoot for me!

Today, after we do our 20 min cardio warm up, we did 4 circuits. We did each one twice before moving onto the next circuit. Here's a run down of what we did.
Circuit 1:
Air Squats - 20 reps
Jumping Jacks - 20 reps
Plank - 1 min ( I did 40 sec the first time before I dropped! but I got back up)
Squats regular - 10 reps
Squats Narrow - 10 reps
Lunges (per leg) - 10 reps (for some reason I really feel these)
High Knees - 1 min
Water Break

Circuit 2:
Balance on Ball with no feet touching - 30 sec
Holding ball overhead: Reg. Squats - 10 reps
Pulse ball over head - 10 sec
Wide Squats ball over head - 10 reps
Water Break

Circuit 3:
Ball between legs & crunch - 20 reps
Ball between legs, crunch to elbow - 15 reps
Ball between legs, crunch other elbow - 15 reps
Ball above head and full sit up - 20 reps --- this is really hard for me!!!
Water Break

Circuit 4:
V-Sit - 10 reps
Bicycle Crunches - 10 reps
Mountain Climbers - 10 reps --- ah hello hard
Elbows to Knees - 10 reps

Cool Down

I will just say that No I didn't do every single rep for ever single work out today. Some of them I could only do a few, like the Ball above head and full sit up, that one killed me and I could only do about 5 each time. Same with high knees. I know you are supposed to hop from leg to leg but I did it the beginner way. Lift one leg, high knee, put leg down, pull up the other leg and do the same. My goal is to be able to do it all, ever single rep, and second by the end of bootcamp.

I'm taking the POWER back as Bob said last night on Biggest Loser.
I CAN do this!!!

First Day of Boot Camp! (written Sept. 20 2010)

I am fighting going to bed right now, it's only what almost 8pm. Today's workout kicked my butt. I am in pain but the good kind, the kind that tells you that you were working out some muscles that havent been pulling their weight.

Today we did circuit training. 60 sec cardio and then 3 reps of squats, push-ups, plank or whatever we were doing then back to 60 sec of cardio. Don't forget to add the 20 mins hard warm-up we do on our own before bootcamp time. So all in all today I worked out for 1.5 hours.

Tomorrow we just have to do 30 mins of cardio! Whoo hoo

I also started my (second) new job today. I got to watch 4 hours worth of video. I tell you I was ready for a coffee by the time the first video was over ( I watched 9 in total) but I stuck to my water. As of right now I have 7 cups down. YAH ME!!!

Well I think I've fought off this sleep thing enough. Bedtime for me.

Bullying

This is something that happened to me a lot when I was in school oh so long ago. For some reason kids just targeted me. I still to this day have no idea why I was picked on or what made me such an "easy" target.

You might be wondering what brought this up. Well I was just watching America's Next Top Model and they did a photo shoot about Bullying and the names people got called. For me it was mostly Fat, Ugly, Stupid, you know the usuals. I think what effected me more was the kids not wanting to be friends with me. It has had a lasting effect on me in the way that I think I am just not good enough to have friends. Sometimes I don't even know how to act in public. Do I want friends, hell yes, who doesn't? But my stumbling block seems to be what to say and not say.

You see I am a very open person and some people can't handle that. I don't hide my childhood, the fact that I have a drug addicted brother or really anything else. I mean I don't tell people what I do in the bathroom (like some people I know) but I am honest. When I don't know what to say/do I am silent. I don't want to offend anyone so I stay quiet. This, I have been told, makes me come across as "stuck up , snobby, even Bitchy" which I totally don't want to be seen as.

The bullying (along with a great many other childhood events) has also helped ruin my self-esteem. I am so unsure of myself and I hate it. When I see people that are so confident and sure of them self I get jealous. I think to myself "Why can't I be like that?" and then the beating myself up (in my head) starts all over again. BAH

So please tell me I am not the only one that has had to deal with this?
Does it still effect you? If so do you do anything to combat it?

September Long Weekend!!!

September Long weekend, wow. Just the thought of those words make me want to binge on all sorts of junk food. Maybe it has something to do with old feelings left over from child/teenage years because September long weekend means school is starting, but really I just think its another excuse I used because I was going to "start dieting" after said long weekend. Well I never did make it more than half of the day, lol.

Things are different now. This is not a diet, its a total lifestyle reno!
Goodbye old crappy friends that kept me around not because they wanted to be friends but because they needed the token fat chick friend that would break the ice with all the guys, cause they looked so much better lined up against the fat girl. I never really knew how much drama they brought into my life until the break-up. Funny I think of my relationship with them as a break-up in the boyfriend/girlfriend kinda way. There are hurt feelings and a lot of the time I'll admit I miss them, then I realise how much better off I am without them. I like who I have become over the years. I am much more myself and not who I always thought they wanted/needed me to be. Does that make any sense?
I guess I am bringing this up because I am back in my home town, and I'm running into some of them. Funny how they can still see you as the girl from 5 years ago, when you are obviously so different now. I shake my head, lol

Enough of that for now. Today was alright. Didn't do fantastic on food, but then it wasn't like I was eating fast food either. Just didn't think ahead and had to do the grab and go. I really need to start planning out meals. Less carbs way more veggies (PS you will never see me totally cut out carbs, they are good for you in moderation) Other than the food stuff. I worked, still learning how to close the store, but seeing as I've only worked there for 3 weeks I think I'm doing really good!

Hoping to get out and do something active tomorrow.
Until then, Night!