This month has been bad, I mean very bad.
The family stress totally got to me and I gained almost 5 Lbs. After all that work that I did to get if off and then in the snap of my fingers its back on. I can feel the deep pit of depression crawling back.
So I need to shake myself up. Time to wake up and smell that coffee
(this time without the huge pour of flavored creamer and sugar)
I realised that I often go: Well... it's almost "insert month/day here" so I'll start next month or next Monday, ect, ect. I don't have to wait for a certain day to start I can do that right now!
So tonight instead of munchin out on crappy foods I had a huge salad and a chicken boob for dinner I also had 2 cups of water with it! I so wanted a glass of Sprite or even the dreaded Coke, but I haven't really drank pop in a while now so that's kinda weird for me.
What I have been doing is eating chocolate bars. My Mother in law sent us home with like 10. The other day I asked my hubby to get me one from the fridge and he was like:
" There are ONLY 2 LEFT??? Where did they all go??"
He just looked at me cause I have been saying how much I want to loose weight, did that stop me from eating that chocolate bar that night, nope. As I finished off the last bar tonight I realised when I was eating it that I don't even taste it. Like it doesn't taste like chocolate to me. Why was I eating it when it didn't even taste good???
I'm going to try my best to track my food. I might not get down the calories but at least writing down what I had to eat and the approx size will be a start. I'm going to start using my SparkPeople account again.
I'm even going to ask Hubby to cook a healthy Birthday dinner for me!
Today is the day I start making small steps to get me to where I want to be!!
The family stress totally got to me and I gained almost 5 Lbs. After all that work that I did to get if off and then in the snap of my fingers its back on. I can feel the deep pit of depression crawling back.
So I need to shake myself up. Time to wake up and smell that coffee
(this time without the huge pour of flavored creamer and sugar)
I realised that I often go: Well... it's almost "insert month/day here" so I'll start next month or next Monday, ect, ect. I don't have to wait for a certain day to start I can do that right now!
So tonight instead of munchin out on crappy foods I had a huge salad and a chicken boob for dinner I also had 2 cups of water with it! I so wanted a glass of Sprite or even the dreaded Coke, but I haven't really drank pop in a while now so that's kinda weird for me.
What I have been doing is eating chocolate bars. My Mother in law sent us home with like 10. The other day I asked my hubby to get me one from the fridge and he was like:
" There are ONLY 2 LEFT??? Where did they all go??"
He just looked at me cause I have been saying how much I want to loose weight, did that stop me from eating that chocolate bar that night, nope. As I finished off the last bar tonight I realised when I was eating it that I don't even taste it. Like it doesn't taste like chocolate to me. Why was I eating it when it didn't even taste good???
I'm going to try my best to track my food. I might not get down the calories but at least writing down what I had to eat and the approx size will be a start. I'm going to start using my SparkPeople account again.
I'm even going to ask Hubby to cook a healthy Birthday dinner for me!
Today is the day I start making small steps to get me to where I want to be!!
