How a 30 Something Girl is dealing with everyday Life and Infertility

I'm learning who I am, my battle with Infertility and other everyday ramblings.

Infertility Song

Holy Crap! There is a song about infertility! Will wonders never cease?

My 30 day Commitment to ME!

As I was tell you all in a previous post I was going to start a new. I need to work on me. This fertility stuff is just trying to consume me, so to the back burner you go till I get a call from the fertility clinic.

Here is My 30 day Commitment to ME!

~ I Will Drink 8 Cups of Water a Day
~ I will work out on the Treadmill for at least 30 mins a Day
~I will NOT eat any fast food
~I will limit myself to 2 caffeinated drinks a day (coffee/tea)
~ I will meditate for 10 mins 3 times a week
~ I will be in bed by or before Midnight every night

That's it, for now at least. I don't want to set myself up for failure.

So today's the start date: July 24 2011
My activities for today were: Treadmill 35mins.
Walking at 5.5km/h for 5 mins and running at 8km/h for one min.

Results

Had my U/S done on Monday which was great seeing as I had an apt with the OBGYN on Wed where I got my results. Things are not looking up. Well I shouldn't totally say that I have no pallups, my tubes are clear and my lining is good. The only thing that doesn't seem to be working is my ovaries. Buggers like to make cysts but not release the little eggys in them, grrr.
So my OB was like "Yha the treatment that I've had you on doesn't seem to be working"
(No Kidding)
And now we are on our next step in this journey. Referral to a fertility clinic. I am just waiting to hear from them telling me when I can get an apt. Fertility clinics scare me because of the cost associated with them and their treatment but hopefully most of it will be covered
(I can dream right?)

Because of the waiting game I will now be playing I think I am going to concentrate on something else. Something that will help me in the end, plus make me feel better. My Fitness. I went and rented a treadmill so NO MORE EXCUSES! Time to get this butt moving :D
As soon as it gets here I am going to make a 30 day commitment to me, which I will of course share with you! so watch out for it!

My Goal for Today!

My goal for today was to go to two places that I had never been before. I surpasses this by going to 3 places I had never been! I'm so very proud. One of these places I even walked around.

So on to the places I visited!
The first stop was Little Mountain in Parksville. One of my good friends keeps talking about how she hikes up it and I wanted to check it out. WOW it's steep! I didn't walk up it, I drove, lol. The view from the top was fantastic! I so have to bring Mr. there the next time he is over on the island.





The fall is quite far! Too bad so many people dump crap over the edge

My next stop was Englishman River Falls. Lots of people can't believe that I have never been here seeing as I have lived only 25 mins away most of my life. It was beautiful! A great walk I went from top falls to bottom falls. It really was fantastic. I totally recommend going to visit these two places!
The top four are from the upper falls, the first one on the bottom is looking down the river just after upper fall. The last 3 on the bottom are from the lower falls and looking just past the lower fall.

The third place I went was the new Bosley's in Parksville. WOW it's fantastic! Way bigger than our store. I love it, if you are around there go in and check it out!!!

For Infertility news...
AF arrived, whoot whoot. I think I am the only one that gets excited when AF actually comes to visit, lol. For me it means I can start another month of treatment. Clomid 100mg day 5-9 here we come! Hopefully this time I will O!
I'll keep you posted

July, What Freaking happened to 1/2 the Year??

Holy Crap! Where did half the year ago?
I can't believe it's July already.
I've been on the island for almost a year, a whole year... holy moly
Don't get me wrong I love it here but I miss my hubby.
Blah, blah, blah same old feeling on repeat.
It's not going to change though, cause this is were my job is. I mean I could ask for a transfer but then I will be back on the bottom again, no full time hours, I might not even like the people I work with. I would hate having to go to work and dislike the other employees.
So yha, that's still the same.

Half a year.. weight wise I have hovered around the same mark around 210lbs
I tell you I haven't really been kicking my butt.
Or watching what I've been eating but that is changing. I am slowly changing what I am eating and when not to mention how.
So this is my plan. Watch what I eat. Walk at least 4 times a week for 30mins or more.
and maybe even try hot yoga.
I'm going to eat low carb, not no carb just low carb. I heard it's really good for those that have PCOS with insulin resistance. Less sugar is good too. It's going to be very heard seeing as I am a sugar addict.
Hi, my name is Andrea and I am a sugar addict.

Infertility wise I am on CD 33. I've taken my Prometrium so now I am just waiting for AF.
Then I can go on cycle 6 of Clomid. Booo. I am so happy I have an apt with the OB later this month. We need to have a talk about treatment. Cause this Clomid is NOT working. I haven't even O'd yet. When will it happen??? I think it's time for a referral to a fertility clinic, Or maybe some more testing to see if I am even responding to this treatment. Yha that would be nice.

I feel kinda guilty. When I hear so and so is pregnant I am so happy for them but I am also so sad for us. Not just me but the Mr. too. I feel like I am fighting off depression. There aren't every many people I can talk to about this because they just don't understand. I find myself ready to cry at the drop of a hat... or be angry for no reason. Sometime I find I have a hard time talking about it. I mean what do you say when people keep asking you "when you are going to have kids? "
Sorry my ovaries are broken?
I mean come on.

So I guess I will leave it as is until something new happens.