Fertility or Infertility?

I never know how I should start this off. Do I use Infertility or do I just go with Fertility? Anyways I'm starting this post off with the Baby making stuff, lol
So today is CD18. Mr. and I got to BD from CD 13 - 16 but then I had to go back to work (which means I leave Mr.) I didn't really feel any different this time with the Clomid.
I feel kinda bad though. The Dr. gave me a scrip for 100mg of Clomid for CD5-9 and I kinda self medicated (Uh OH) So for days CD5 & 6 I did 100mg but on days 7,8 &9 I did 150mg. I have no idea if this hurt my chances at actually O'ing. I go for CD21 Bloodwork on Tuesday and I should have my results back by Wed. If I don't have the number that shows that I have O'd then I am going to make an apt with the OBGYN again. I think this time I want to go in with a list in hand.
The trouble I am having is what Questions/ Demands to I make?
I know I would like an ultrasound to check my lining (as I will be going onto month 6 of clomid) I would also like to have one to check and see if I am responding to the Clomid, cause lets be honest if I am not responding to this drug I don't want to pay for it anymore!
I know I should get more bloodwork done but I have no clue what to ask for.
So Blog readers, what do I ask for???

I think I am going to hit up the WB ladies on this too. I'm not as active on the forums as I used to be, alright so I stalk and peep allot of threads but I don't post very often. Mostly it's because whatever I want to say has already been said or sounds wrong when I type it out. Ha ha kinda like my blogs.

Quinoa-veggie burger

I love trying new things so tonight for dinner we are going to try Quinoa -Veggie Burgers. This recipe is from Chatelaine.

Ingredients

• 1/2 cup uncooked quinoa (about 2 cups cooked)
• 1 tsp vegetable oil
• 1/2 227 g pkg cremini mushrooms, coarsely grated (1 cup)
• 1 cup coarsely grated zucchini
• 3/4 cup coarsely grated carrot
• 1 small shallot, minced
• 1 garlic clove, minced
• 1 egg, beaten
• 3 tbsp cornstarch
• 1/4 tsp salt
• 1/8 tsp cayenne pepper

1. Cook quinoa according to package directions, omitting salt, about 14 min. Transfer to a large bowl.
2. Heat a large, wide non-stick frying pan over medium. Add oil, then mushrooms, zucchini, carrot, shallot and garlic. Cook until soft, about 5 min. Add to quinoa. Stir in egg, cornstarch, salt and cayenne.
3. Heat the same non-stick frying pan over medium. Firmly press quinoa mixture into a 1/2-cup measuring cup. Turn and release into pan. Gently press to shape into a patty about 4 in. wide. Repeat, cooking 2 patties at a time. Cook until golden and warmed through, about 4 min per side. Top with tahini sauce and roasted plum tomatoes

Nutrients per Serving

• 159 calories
• 5 g protein
• 27 g carbohydrates
• 4 g fat
• 3 g fibre
• 180 mg sodium

I'll Update later letting you all know how it tasted :D
On another note weighed in on Sunday and was 208.0lb so that is a loss of 4lbs! in one week

Stress with Work and Fertility

Oh Wow what a couple days it has been.

Lets start off with work...
So this week there was a managers meeting in Vancouver so that meant my boss had to get off for two days leaving me to run the store, which I am ok with seeing as I am senior sales.
I walk in on Weds and one of the delivery's is sitting outside, he came early grrrr. Our store is not in the best part of town so I was a little upset. But whatever I can start working 1/2 hour early right. Then an 5 mins after 9 the phone rings and I am told my closing girl is sick. There is NO one else to call in. Bah working the whole day by my self. No so bad right. Toss in a couple young punks that are trying to lift product and not leaving the store when you ask them too things start to get tense. One of my male customers snaps and starts pushing then punks outta the store. I was already on the phone calling security thinking they might fight just outside the door. Bah not a great day but not totally bad right.
Thursday arrived and yet again I get a call from one of the girls saying she is still sick and has to stay at home today and Friday. Ok I understand it's ruff getting sick but Thursdays are Truck day. Our biggest delivery comes in today. So I get on with my day, putting away as much of the truck as I can by myself. 3pm comes around and I am wondering where my closing guy is. So I call him, no answer. I leave a message asking if he was going to be coming into work. He saunters in 10 mins late and asks me where everyone is. I tell him its just me today and ask him why he was late, he mumbles something and goes and puts his work shirt on.
By this point I am so tired, pet food bags are really heavy when you are moving close to 50 of them by yourself. Anyways I'm helping a customer and my closing guy gets a call on his cell and answers it! Now let me just tell you that there are no cell phone on the floor rule, which he has always ignored. I just look at him and he hangs up. After finishing with my customer I head to the back to get some lunch. I have to pop back out for a sec and there is my closing guy talking on the phone again! I told him to put the phone in the back room now please. He said "I'll do it later" and I was like "NO, you will do it NOW!" I was so done by that point. Like WTF.
After that I went back into the office and I see this plastic bag with shirts in it. I was like SHIT. I walk out to the front, wait for the closing guy to finish with his customer and ask him if he was quitting. He said "yes", I asked when and he said "Today. I was going to walk in and quit but then you told me that you were working alone and I felt guilty" I was like you know what you can go. I just need your key and for you to sign some papers oh and if you were going to leave a letter I will need that too. I couldn't believe it. I am from the old school where you give 2 weeks notice and that's how it's done. Never have I not given that time frame when leaving a job. To top things off this weekend is our Grand Opening! I was so tired having to deal with all that drama I could sting together sentences when I got home.

So that's whats been going on with work. Tomorrow is the Grand Opening and I am really looking forward to it.

On to Fertility....
So I got AF on June 1 and it was very heavy. This time she stayed almost a week!! It's been a long time since I've had one last that long. I started Clomid 100mg on CD5 and did 100mg on CD5 & 6 then went to 150mg for day 7,8 & 9. I really hope it works this month. I have been feeling really HOT these last 2 days but I think it might have something to do with the weather and stress too. Keeping my fingers crossed.
If this doesn't make me O this month then I am going to my OB and getting him to put in that reference. My mom thinks I should do that now, she thinks I've waited to long and that the OB isn't doing all he can to help me. I hear about girls getting ultrasounds on CD3 and then again Closer to CD14 to see how things are going and I have never had these. Actually the last ultrasound I had showed that my ovaries were a little bigger then they should be. I'm guessing that's not good.
I feel so bad. Most of the time I try to push it to the back of my mind but lately it's always there. I feel guilty for being sad when someone tells me they are PG. It's very conflicting for me. I want to be happy (and in most cases I am) but then again I am sad that my body just won't do what it's supposed to and I might end up being the cause of us not having kids.
*Beep Breath*
I feel really alone