How a 30 Something Girl is dealing with everyday Life and Infertility

I'm learning who I am, my battle with Infertility and other everyday ramblings.

Cakes, Cookies and everything bad for you Recipes

$100 Chocolate Cake
Ingredients:

Part 1
2 cups Flour
2 tsp Baking Soda
1 Cup White sugar
pinch of Salt
4 Tbsp. Cocoa
Mix Well Together

Part 2
1 cup Miracle Whip Salad Dressing
1 cup Water
1 Tsp Vanilla
Mix well Together

Directions:
Combine Part 1 with Part 2, mix well. Bake for 45 min @ 350F

Oatmeal Raisin Cookies
Ingredients:
250
mL Soft Margarine
250
mL Packed Brown Sugar
1 Egg Beaten
5
mL Vanilla
375
mL All-purpose Flour
5
mL Backing Soda
5 ml Cinnamon
1
mL Salt
300
mL Rolled Oats
250
mL Raisin

Directions:
Heat oven to 350 F. Cream butter and sugar together. Add egg and vanilla. After mixed well add remaining ingredients and mix well by hand. Drop By Spoon onto Baking sheet. Bake for 8-10 min


Baking Powder Biscuits

Ingredients:
250 mL flour
10
mL Baking Powder
75
mL Milk
1
mL Salt
30
mL shorting


Directions:
Preheat oven to 425.
Sift flour and add baking powder and salt. Cut in Shorting. Add Milk gradually. Lightly flour board and knead
doh 4 times. Roll to 3/4 thickness. Cut with knife or use a cup to make round biscuits. Place cutouts onto floured pan for 15-20 mins.

Banana Cake

Ingredients:
1 Cup Sugar
1/2 Tsp. Vanilla
1/2 Cup Butter
4 Tbsp. Cream (milk)
1 tbsp baking soda (mixed with milk)
1 Cup mashed Bananas
2 tsp Baking Powder
2 Cups Flour
1/2 Tsp. Salt
1 Tsp. Cinnamon (optional)
1/2 Tsp. Nutmeg (optional)
1 Cup Walnuts (optional)

Directions:
Mix all Ingredients together and bake in over @ 350F for35-40 min.

Carnation "Can't Fail 5 Minute Fudge"
Ingredients:
2/3 cup (small can) Undiluted Carnation Evaporated Milk
1 2/3 cups Sugar
1/2 Tsp. Salt
1 1/2 Cups (6 medium) diced Marshmallows
1 1/2 Cups Semi-sweet chocolate chips
1 tsp. Vanilla
1/2 cup chopped nuts

Directions:
Mix Carnation, sugar, and salt together in saucepan over low heat. Heat to boiling, cook 5 minutes. Stir Constantly. Remove from heat. Add marshmallows, chocolate chips, vanilla, and nuts. Stir 1 - 2 minutes or until marshmallows melt. Pour into buttered 9 inch square pan. Cool Then cut into Squares.

Cocoa Quickies
Ingredients:
1 Cup Butter
1/2 Cup Milk
2 Cups Sugar
1/2 Cup Cocoa
2 Cups Coconut
2 1/2 - 3 Cups Rolled Oats

Directions:
Combine butter, milk, sugar, and cocoa in a large pan and bring to a boil. remove from heat. Add coconut and oats. Drop by teaspoonful on cookie sheet lined with waxed paper. Chill in fridge for 1 hour. Makes approx 6 Dozen. Store in air-tight container. May be Frozen.

Snickerdoodle Cookies
Ingredients:
2 3/4 Cups All-purpose Flour
1/4 Tsp. Salt
1 Tsp. Baking Soda
2 Tsp. Cream of Tartar
1 1/2 Cups of Sugar
1 cup Butter or Margarine (soften)
2 Eggs

Topping
1/2 Cup Sugar
1 Tbsp Cinnamon

Directions:
Preheat Oven to 350F. In Large Bowl with an electric mixer cream butter until light. Add the eggs and beat on low speed until mixture is smooth. Add flour, salt, baking soda, and cram of Tartar and beat on low speed until dough begins to form. Combine sugar and cinnamon (topping)in small bowl. Shape dough into 1 inch balls and roll them in the Topping. Arrange on
un greased baking sheet 2 inches apart and bake for 16-19 mins or until light tan. Transfer to racks to cool.

French Chocolate Mousse
Ingredients:
4 oz Dark Chocolate
1 Tbs. Sugar
3 Egg Yokes
5 Egg Whites

Directions:
1. Melt chocolate in a double boiler
2. Remove Chocolate from heat and add Sugar, stir well. Then add egg yokes one at a time,
stirring well
3.Beat egg whites until stiff then gently fold
into chocolate mixture until well blended.
4. Pour into serving bowls and cover with plastic wrap and put into fridge over night

Lime Philly Freeze
Ingredients:
1 1/4 cups Oreo Baking Crumbs
1/4 cup butter - melted
2
pks. Cream cheese soft
1 can frozen
limeaid concentrate, thawed
1 tub cool whip
2 tsp. grated lime peel

Directions:
Line 9 inch square pan with foil, so it goes around the edge. Mix Crumbs And butter and press into the bottom of pan.

Beat cream cheese in large bowl with electric mixer until creamy. Gradually add limeade concentrate. Beat till blended. Add 3 1/2 cups whip topping.
Stir with wire whisk until well blended. Spoon evenly over crust. Freeze 3 hours or until firm.

Mocha Truffles
Ingredients:
1/3 cup heavy whipping cream
1/2 stick (1/4 cup) butter or
margarine cut up (not spread)
1 Tbsp instant
espresso crystals
2 cups (12oz) semisweet chocolate chips
1/3 cup white chocolate vanilla chips

Directions:
In glass dish over boiling water heat cream and butter until cream simmers and butter has melted.
Whisk in
espresso crystals until dissolved
Add chocolate and while chips over low heat until melted and smooth.
Add to Glass dish with Cream and butter mixture.
Chill about 2 hours
Line cookie sheet with wax. Roll mixture into 3/4 inch balls and chill 1 hour.
Decorate with cocoa and put back to chill.

Hawaiian Wedding Cake

Ingredients:
2c. Flour
1 tsp. Baking soda
1 tsp. Salt
1 1/2c. White Sugar
2 eggs
1 19oz. Can crushed Pineapple
1c. Coconut
1/2c. Chopped
maraschino cherries

Directions:
Mix together. Pour into 9x13 pan and Bake at 350 for 35-40
mins

Questionnaire that's making the Rounds

There is a questionnaire that is making the rounds in Blog-land and I thought I would answerer it too.

1. What was your highest weight, what do you weigh right now and what is your goal weight?

My highest weight was 229.8lbs on Jan. 1 2010.
My weight now is 212.8lbs as of Oct. 9 2010
My Goal weight is 175lbs

2. What is your #1 motivation for losing weight?

#1 is to become healthier. To have lower cholesterol, to help myself get pregnant, and maybe just a little to lose that double chin!!

3. Have you always been overweight?

Oh heck yes

4. When you want to give up what inspires you to keep going?

The thought of not being able to have children, or being around them because I have passed on from not taking care of myself

5. What is the #1 thing you look forward to when you hit your goal weight?

Cheaper clothes, lol being able to shop in a regular store will be just awesome! The other big thing will be to be able to run around with my husband

6. Do you have support on your weight loss journey?

Yes, the Mr is very supportive, though he tells me all the time he will love me at any size.

7. What is your favorite exercise?

I have a love/hate relationship with my bootcamp. They make me do things that I never thought I could do. Like say the PLANK pose

8. What is the most important thing you have learned on your weight loss journey?

That I can do anything if I put my mind to it.

9. What is one thing you have given up that you miss the most?

Being able to go out for dinner with friends and not care about what I was going to eat/drink.

10. What is your strategy for losing weight?

Bootcamp and clean eating

You can answer the questions if you want to too.

When you sleep in.... OPS!

I could have kicked myself this morning, when instead of getting up with my alarm at 500am, I woke to the sound of rain outside and it was almost 830am!!!

AHHHHH I slept in and missed my 530am work out.
I guess I needed the sleep.

So instead of blowing off the whole day, like I would have done in the past. I made breakfast, packed lunch and my snacks. Then I packed a Gym bag. After work today I went to the gym and did the 430pm workout with a different class. Boy am I happy I went. I felt so much better! I had a little "YEAH ME" moment. All though I was tired after work I am so darn proud of myself that I went.
I think I am fighting off the week 3 slump. If there is such a thing, lol.

I will do this!!!

Achievement & Feelings

Today for a work out I walked around Westwood Lake, which is about 6km of trails around one of the many lakes in the area I live in.
Last time I walked it it took me 1.5 hours today I did it in 1 hour 15 sec ! YEAH ME!

I'm so freaking proud of myself.

In other news, feeling a bit lonely. I am noticing how when I am feeling alone that I tend to turn to food. Then there is that inner battle of what I should eat and what I want to eat, bah... I hate this feeling. Maybe it's because everyone is so busy right now but sometimes I really feel like some of the friends I have are only fair weather friends. They come around, hang out, chat with you but only when they want to. The rest of the time you are left feeling out in the cold. I thought I would see some of my friends more now that I don't have to worry about the distance but it is just as before. I hardly see them let alone hear from them. I don't want to make this a poor me post, I just really needed to get it out and I feel this is a safe place to write.

I should log off here and get to bed seeing as I am up at O'dark hundred to go to the gym for another butt kicking.

Until next time...

Me vs. "The Voice"

Everyone has a voice in their head. The one that they have conversations with, where you suddenly say "Oh, Yha I totally forgot that!" and the people around you look at you kinda funny. Please tell me I am not the only one that does this, lol.

Well what happens when the voice is telling you to quit something that you really want to do? That is my fight right now. As some of you know I have been sick this last week and have missed a whole week of Bootcamp. The voice is telling me to quit, not to go back tomorrow. I sometimes feel myself leaning towards what the voice is saying. Inside my head it's the usual :
- You've already missed so much
- The other people will be head of you
- Do you really want to get up at 5am everyday
- You can't do this

But I am fighting this, fighting the inner voice and thought pattern.
I don't want to Quit. I want to go to the gym and get my butt kicked, work out , and sweat tons! I want to feel what it feels like to be under 200 again. To be flexible again! I think I just really needed to type it out, you know convince myself that going is the best thing for me (even though I am not 100% better).

That I can do this. That I will do this.

That's it I'm going tomorrow!

Take that evil inner voice of self doubt!!!