HSG, Sickness and Doubt

I got my HSG (Hysterosalpingogram) done on Monday. In case you are wondering what an HSG is, it is an X-ray procedure where dye is injected into the uterine cavity through the vagina and cervix. The uterine cavity fills with dye and if the fallopian tubes are open, dye fills the tubes and spills into the abdominal cavity. Yes, it hurts like hell. Every single muscle is trying to force the dye out while the Dr. is pumping more in.
The good news is my Right Tube is wide open. The left one was letting some dye in and then went into spasm and since the dye already had an easy way out the right tube it went the way of least resistance, So the Dr said that it is probably open but they don't know for sure.

With that done I head to my GP (regular doctor) because I have been sick with a cold for 2 weeks and it's just not getting any better. In fact it was getting worse. Turns out I have a very bad Bronchitis infection and I was still contagious :( My GP told me I had to take a whole week off work. I didn't think I was going to take the whole week off but man did I need it. I am just getting over it now. I can almost breath without coughing / becoming light headed and I almost have my voice back.
The good thing is I have gotten to spend the week at home with hubby (though he has been at work). Our bed is so comfy compared to the bed I have at my moms place.

Needless to say weight loss has been on the back burner. I have been pretty much eating whatever I want. Including eating cupcakes from "Cupcakes" but they tasted sooooo good. Now that I am feeling better back on the weight loss wagon!!!

Fertility Food and Weight Loss

Wow today was a hard day. I didn't think it would be but wow, totally emotional.

I went to my OB today because the treatment that he had given me didn't work. We discussed a lot of different treatments and meds. I can't believe we have been trying to conceive for 15 months already. The Mr. seaman analysis was great. The numbers are right where they need to be so I know the problem lies with me.

I feel broken.

So here is the game plan for the next little while. CD21 (cycle day) blood tests as well as CD3. Upping my Clomid to 100mg a day and keeping my Metformin @ 1000mg a day. I am getting an HSG test done at the hospital on the 21st. After that I start the cycle all over again hoping that this time it works. OB said that if I haven't conceived by Jan 1 2012 then he will refer me to an Fertility Clinic. By that date we will have been trying for 24 months, sigh

With all this going on it's totally made me re-focus on my weight loss. I don't have the money to get a gym membership but that doesn't mean I can't get out and walk or do at home exercise videos. I've been way more conscious of what I have been eating. Have I been 100% no, but I'm getting there and the scale is moving in the right direction. As of this morning I was 211.4lbs!!! Almost at a 20lbs loss... again. My goal right now is 199, after that I am going to say 179 with the ultimate goal of 160lbs (wow, I actually said it out loud)!

So with that said I want to leave on a happy note. I watched Glee tonight (yha for Shaw on Demand!) and I have to say I love this song. I totally feel like a looser most of the time and a Geek the rest so I get this song. Enjoy!

Hey YOU!

Hey you.

Yes, you. Stop being unhappy with yourself. You are perfect. Stop wishing you looked like someone else or wishing people liked you as much as they like someone else. Stop hating your body, your face, your personality, your quirks. LOVE them. Smile. It'll draw people in. My happiness will not depend on others anymore. I'm happy because I love who I am. I love my flaws. I love my imperfections. They make me me. And 'me' is pretty amazing.

-anon

I Love this!!! It totally makes me smile. Although I am trying to loose weight I love who I am. My weight does not define me. I define me!

I just had to pass this along to all of those out there that have had any of those thoughts/ self-doubts (I know I have).

Update and Such...

So last night the Mr. and I went and saw Battle for LA. It was a pretty good movie. Great action/sci-fi. I'm into those films. It had some great one liners in it that made the whole theater Laugh out loud. Like I said the action was great and of course there was the "We are going to beat this and save the world" speech but it wasn't that long and the one liners totally made up for it.

I would say 4 outta 5 stars

Other than that I have been working away. Learning tons of new info on the Pet industry. I had no clue about so many pet related things before I started my job. I love going into work everyday and learning new things. Makes me Love my job. Now only if I got paid more :D

Things are Not going so good on the weight loss front. Here are the updated numbers

In case you are wondering... I have no problem tell the world what I weigh it is after all only a number and does not define who I am as a person or at least that what I keep telling myself.

Weight: 213lbs

Height: 5'3"

Neck: 15"

Waist: 41.5"

Hips: 47.5"

I was down to 204lbs but then Christmas hit followed by New Years and well it was a slippery slope and I just did not want to pay attention after that. I stopped going to the gym and just didn't care about the food that when into my mouth. I have to change that.

~ I'm going to Cut back on my Sugar , not taking it all out cause I would feel deprived and would just end up falling off the wagon, again.

~ I'm going to walk 30 mins rain or shine at least 4 times a week.

~Drink 8 cups of water a day

~ Reduce my Caffeine intake to 2 cups a day

As for fertility. We are still working on that. Clomid 50mg months 1,2, and 3 are a bust. I get to see my OB on Wends and I'm pretty much going to tell him that I need (insert long list here) done or I am going to request to see another OB. There is one in town that specializes with PCOS so I might have better luck there. Anyways my fingers are crossed that things happen and if they don't well we will come to the bridge when we have to. Positive thinking!!!