How a 30 Something Girl is dealing with everyday Life and Infertility

I'm learning who I am, my battle with Infertility and other everyday ramblings.

Week 1 Day 3 of the C25K

So Instead of doing my day 3 yesterday I did it today. Boy was waiting a day so wrong. I was such a hurting unit while running and after! I was almost crying with the inner voice in my head saying "Oh come on, you are hurting, why are you still doing this?" But I beat them. I kept going.

While I was running though I noticed my left leg was really sore. It might have something to do with the fact that my running shoes are oh about 5 years old (eepp I know!) So on my List of things to Buy is new shoes because I can't run with sore knees and calf's.

I did miss one of the 60 second bursts cause I was gauging my knee and how I was feeling. I will defiantly be doing Week 1 again. I might not be a runner yet, but I'm working on it. I think I was to do Week 1 until I can do it comfortably. Like not be huffing and puffing at the end of the 60 seconds.

Can't wait for Wend, when I do Week 1 Day 1 - Take 2!


I am a little disappointed in my weigh in last friday though. It showed a 0 loss. I really need to start meal planning! I don't know how all you guys do it. I get so confused! Here's to next weigh in! Hoping for a loss

C25K Week 1 Day 2

So I will be honest, I really didn't want to run today. I was trying to make up excuses not to go, I have to do the laundry or finish reading this book before its due back at the library, silly things like that. Finally I pulled up my socks and sucked it up and went out and DID IT!!


I took the dog with me this time. I don't think I will bring her with me all the time as I often have to slow down or stop to pick up after her. But she does keep me going when I am running, The good and the bad.

I found this run harder to do. I think it's because

A) My legs still hurt from W1D1
B) I wasn't on a running track like W1D1 but on the sidewalk
C) Mental side of it. I was fighting with myself about going and I think it really effected me on this run.

I'm So glad I went though. I did all of the 60 sec bursts!!
with out stopping this time, Yeah me!!!

I think though I might do week 1 for two weeks just because I am huffing and puffing so much after the bursts. Then I hear the guy on the podcasts say that I should be able to talk while running and I'm like you have to be kidding me, cause I sure can't. It's also been so long since I've ran that doing week 1 twice will be good for me. Get me back into it, and maybe help with my breathing.


One thing I noticed today though. I used to be soooo concerned with how people saw me while I was exercising. I really didn't want people to see me huffing and puffing and my inside voice saying stupid things like, I bet that person is making some remark about my fat ass huffing and puffing or sweating or really some Silly thing.

Today yeah there were people that saw me and you know what I really couldn't have given a shit what they saw, thought, or said. I was running! I was making myself Better. Improving MYSELF!!!

YEAH for mental breakthrough and happy tears as I write this!!!


Right now I can't wait for W1D3. Watch out world here I come.

Working on the List



I called my mom and told her how I was feeling last week. She said that I should call her if I feel that way again. Depression is a seasonal thing for me. It seems to get worse when the weather changes drastically. I am feeling better today.

One of the thing on my list of Stuff to do is the Couch to 5k running program. Well I started it today!!! I am so proud of myself. I ran when it told me to run and walked when it said to walk. Now I did pretty good. The last two 60 second runs weren't full 60 seconds. I believe it was 50 secs and 40 secs but still for someone who has NEVER run before I think I did pretty freaking good.

After the C25K The Mr., CoCo and myself went for a little walk too. It was really nice
The Mr is doing a 10km run faster and further running program.

I am working on getting the list up. It's on my TO DO list for this week, lol. And Yes I am a person who does a list for a list for another list, if that makes any sense.

So Lost


I don't really know how to get started, but here it goes.

So I'm trying to loose wight and I did the Biggest Loser for the Wii this week and went for a walk and yet there was no loss instead I gained.... again. So I'm back up to 221.2. I was so excited when I busted the 220s. I was hovering at 219 for like 3 weeks though. I need to loose this weight for my health. Not to mention the Mr. and I would like to try for kids soon too and the last thing I want the OBGYN to say is you can't get preggo cause you are too fat.

The other thing is I am so depressed. I never leave the condo, other than to take the dog out for bathroom brakes and the occasional walk. I really want to cry right now. Between feeling so alone and looking for a job, and only get rejection letters or no reply, it's just killing me. All I want to do is sleep because the more I sleep the less I am awake and not having to deal with everything that you have to deal with when you are awake, like Live.

I don't know how much longer I can go without a job. I mean come on!! I am a great worker why won't anyone hire me???

I got so upset tonight. Mr. texted me from work saying that the "guys" are getting together tomorrow night for UFC and he wanted to go. I was like sure you can go but inside I was like Don't worry about me, I'll just stay home... again,... alone. I know it's the depression and that's why I didn't say a word.

I think I'm breaking. I'm so ashamed of myself, I'm fat, lazy, jobless, almost friendless and So Lost
I'm so Lost.

Eat-Clean Meal

Summertime Risotto
Makes 6 servings

Ingredients:
1 pint cherry tomatoes, roasted
1/4 cup olive oil, best quality
1tsp garlic, minced
1 small onion, diced
2 cups diced zucchini
1/4 cup fresh lemon juice
1 pound Arborio rice
3-4 cups fat-free chicken broth
1 pound scallops, washed
Salt & pepper to taste

Instructions:
Roasted tomatoes: Toss tomatoes in 2 teaspoons oil with a pinch of salt and pepper. Place on nonstick backing sheet and bake 1 hour at 250F
Zucchini puree: In a medium pan, heat 1 tsp oil over med heat. Add garlic and half the onion and cook until translucent. Add zucchini and cook 5 mins. Place all these ingredients in a blender. Add lemon juice and 1 Tbsp oil and puree. Add salt and pepper to taste. Set aside.
Risotto: Heat 1 Tbsp oil in medium pot or medium heat and saute remaining onion until translucent. Add rice and stir to coat. Add brother 1 cup at a time until absorbed, stirring continually for 20 mins or until rice in tender (add more broth if necessary) Once rice is cooked, stir in zucchini puree. Set aside.
Scallops: Heat 1 Tbsp oil in small pan. Season scallops with salt and pepper and cook both sides until lightly browned. Add tomatoes and saute 5 mins. Place risotto on place and top with scallops, tomatoes and parsley.

Nutritional analysis per serving:
488 calories, 16g protein, 11g fat, 68.5 carbohydrates

Eat-Clean Soups

Roasted Garlic & Sweet Potato Soup
Makes 10 Cups

Ingredients:
6 large sweet potatoes
1 large cooking onion, chopped
1 Tbsp extra virgin olive oil
1/2 head roasted garlic
6 cups reduced-salt chicken brother or bouillon
or 1 or 2 cups of water

Instructions:
Preheat oven to 350F. Slice potatoes in half lengthwise. Rub cut surfaces with olive oil and place cut side down on a baking sheet. On the same baking sheet, place a whole bulb of garlic and drizzle with more olive oil. Bake uncovered in center of oven until the sweet potatoes are soft, about 45mins.

Meanwhile heat olive oil in a saute pan. Add chopped onion and saute until clear and soft. Place in food processor. Remove half the potato pulp from the sweet potatoes and place in a food processor. Squeeze the roasted garlic into the food processor with sweet potato pulp. Run the food processor until a smooth puree forms. Place puree into large saucepan and add remaining pureed potato pulp. Add broth and water until desired consistency. Cook on medium until thoroughly heated.

Nutritional information per serving
99 calories, 3.5g protein, 1.5g fat, 18g carbohydrates

Tomato & Roasted Garlic Soup
Makes 12 cups

Ingredients
1 head garlic
1tsp extra virgin olive oil, divided
Salt and Pepper
1 cup chopped onion
1 cup chopped celery
8 cups stewed tomatoes, including juice
1 bay leaf
2 tsp dried oregano
2 tsp dried basil
1 tsp dried thyme

Instructions:
Preheat oven to 400F. Remove loose, papery skins from garlic, leaving head intact. Do not remove all the skin. Cut half an inch off the top of the garlic. Drizzle with olive oil. Sprinkle with salt and pepper. Bake on center rack for 40 mins until garlic has softened. Removed from oven. Place on plate to cool. Once garlic has cooled, squeeze roasted garlic into a small bowl. The paste will be added to the soup.
In large saucepan or dutch oven, heat 1/2 teaspoon olive oil. Add onion and celery and cook until softened, about 5 mins. Stir in tomatoes and juice, 1 cup water and all seasonings. Bring to a boil. Reduce heat, add roasted garlic paste and simmer for 30 mins. Puree with hand blender until mostly smooth.

Nutritional information per serving
71 Calories, 2g protein, 3g fat, 11g carbohydrates

Eat-Clean Potato, Arugula and Tomato Frittata

Makes 4 servings

Ingredients:
450g (1lb) Baby New potatoes
1 Tbsp Olive Oil
1 Garlic Clove, crushed
50g (2oz) Arugula
175g (6oz) Cherry tomatoes, halved
8-12 Egg whites, beaten

Instructions:
Cut potatoes in half, or into chunks in necessary, the cook in a pot of lightly salted boiling water for 8-10mins. Drain. Heat oil in a non-stick frying pan. Cook the garlic over low heat for one minute. Scatter potatoes half the arugula and the cherry tomatoes into the pan. Pour the eggs on top season well with salt and freshly ground black pepper and cook over medium heat for about 5 mins, until almost set. Use a wooden spatula to lift the frittata so any unset egg can travel to the base of the hot pan. When just set on the bottom, place under pre-heated hot grill for 2-3mins to set the top. Scatter the remaining arugula over top and serve.

Nutritional information per serving:
180 calories, 13g protein, 4g fat, 23g carbohydrates

Eat-Clean Recipes

So I came across some Eat-Clean recipes and I thought I would add them here. If I keep everything in one spot it will be easier for me.

Sweet Potato Risotto
Makes 4 servings

Ingredients:
2 Tbsp Olive Oil
1 Onion, Chopped
2 Cloves Garlic, Minced
1 1/2 cup Short-grain Italian rice, such as Arborio
4 cups Low-Sodium Chicken broth, Divided
1 Tbsp white wine vinegar
1 tsp Dried sage
1/2 tsp Sea Salt
1/2 tsp Dried thyme
1/4 tsp Ground black pepper
4 cups Large, bite-size pieces peeled sweet potato
1/4 cup minced fresh parsley (optional)

Instructions:
In a large saucepan, heat oil over medium heat. Saute onion & garlic, stirring, for 2 - 3 mins. Add Rice. Cook, stirring, for another 2-3 mins. Stir in 3 cups of the chicken brother, the vinegar and seasonings. Bring to a boil. Cover and reduce heat to med-low. Cook for 5 mins. Stir in sweet potato. Simmer for 15-18 mins, or until sweet potato and rice are tender but still slightly firm. Stir in the remaining cup of chicken broth. The rice should be moist and creamy. Serve immediately, topped with parsley in desired.

Nutritional information per serving:
170 calories, 5g protein, 2g fat, 31 carbohydrates

April Already

I wonder how when I was a kid the time seemed to go on forever.... and now that I am an adult it's like poof! gone in a flash.

That's kinda how I feel about this year. I really can't believe that it's April already. That means one more month and it's my birthday. I will now not have just turned 30, but I will be IN my 30's AHHH. The horror!!! (actually I'm ok with it, but just playing it up, lol)

So today the Mr., CoCo, and I went out for a walk and tried to do a geocaching location, but this one is super duper hard! Needless to say we didn't get that one. But it was a nice day out, despite the little bit of rain it was mostly sunshine.
While we were out on our walk I zipped into Rogers to rent the Biggest Loser for Wii game. I totally believe in try before you buy, especially when the game is like 50.00 CND (though I wonder with the CND so high right now if it would be almost cheaper to zip down to the States and get it there, hummm something to ponder) anywho after playing some World or Warcraft I tried out the BL game and it kicked my butt!!! Mr. was very happy that they had a great cool down for the game too. So I have it for a week and after a week we'll see where I am on if I like it enough to buy or not.

The other thing I would really like to do is the Couch to 5 km. I have been wayyyy to lazy of the late and really need to get my butt moving. Now that this cold is pretty much gone I have no excuse! I think I will add this future goal to my List of things to do. Which I am compiling right now, with the help of family and friends.

Some of the Weddingbells (WB) girls are on Blogger too so I have been adding them to my follow list. Just in case the were wondering who this person was that was all of a sudden following them. I'm not a stalker, I promise you that!!.

I am still learning how to do this Blogger thing. Some of the stuff people have on their pages looks really cool and I'm like OK, how do they do that? I think I am going to look though youtube to see if there are any tutorials for dummy's on blogger for myself :D

So yha that's it for now. Will write again soon.